Murphy's Beads - A Rainbow of Beaded Creations by Sabina Anderson

January 30, 2011

R.I.P. My Sweet Precious Baby

Bubi ~ May 31 - 2010

Bubi, my Sweet Precious Little Love ♥
There are no words to describe the way I feel inside...the pain is so bad that I can hardly think.

I don't know if I'll ever be able to forgive myself for leaving you at the Clinic all alone during your last 10 days. They told me that with the right therapy and care, you could have lived an almost normal life for a few more months or even a year or two, so I trusted them... but you only had 10 days of torture and maybe even felt that the mom you trusted and loved so much abandoned you.
I wish I could have held you in my arms and make you feel loved during your last moments, but you died all alone...

I don't know how I'll do without you, baby...you've never left my side ever since your daddy died...you slept with me...stood by me for hours when I was sick...kept me company and gave me comfort...

I hope there really is a rainbow bridge and that now you're there, free of pain and happy, playing with your daddy and your brothers.
I wish I could have come with you and I hope I will not have to wait too long.

I'll miss you and love you forever,
mom.

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Chayna on May 30, 2011 11:19 AM

Aww Saby, I'm so sorry to read this just now.  I know how much you  must be missing Bubi {{{{{Hugs}}}}} We never forget them and I sometimes think I see Topsy out of the corner of my eye when I'm on my own and very quiet.  Who knows eh?   I've just come looking at your site coz  there was a link on BeadChat group to your Flowered Donut and I thought I'd see what you were up to.  Take care, love, Chayna

Saby on June 5, 2011 10:18 PM

Hi Chayna, Thank you so much for your kind words and for the hugs. Losing Bubi has been awful. I miss him badly and will always do. When he died, I said that I didn't want to get another kitty, but I'm glad that after torturing myself for months, I came to the conclusion that I need another kitty in my life and that I will be able to give him all the love he deserves and that I will not be taking any love away from Bubi either. As I'm typing to you, little Shiny (I brought him home yesterday) is laying on my lap, purring up a storm and I already love him.
Thanks again for stopping by and leaving a message. I hope to get in touch again soon. Love and hugs, Saby

Dulcey on March 16, 2011 4:44 PM

I am so sorry, Sabina! I hadn't looked at your blog in a long time, and I didn't know that your Bubi had died. Hugs, Dulcey

Saby on April 14, 2011 10:40 PM

Thank you, Dulcey! Sorry I'm replying so late, but I haven't been checking my blog either and I just found out your message.
Bubi's loss knocked me down badly...sorry I didn't write anymore...
Hugs back

JennyWren on January 30, 2011 11:17 PM

{{{Saby}}} Your words express your pain so eloquently that it cuts me like a knife. I hope you can find some comfort in knowing that your precious baby has been restored to perfect health. Know that you are in my thoughts and prayers during this difficult time. Please don't hesitate to write me if you'd like a shoulder to lean on. <3 Bubi<3

Saby on January 31, 2011 7:39 PM

Dear Jenny,
Thank you so much for being here for me, for your comfort and for a shoulder to lean on. Words don't really come out right now, but I will probably write, or chat with you one of these days.
Love and hugs,
Saby

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